Good morning!
This blog isn't going to be profound. It's not going to be much read, either, and I'm guessing I won't write much here. But I wanted a place just to gather random thoughts each morning. My other blogs seem theme-oriented, but sometimes there are things I want to say and moments I want to keep and I just don't have anywhere to put them. That's the way this blog was born.
Yesterday, we had movie night. We popped popcorn and gathered on my bed (all four of us - two kids and their parents) and watched "Yellow Submarine" until we all drifted off to sleep. (My son, just 13 last week, decided half way through that he needed to go to bed and did. But the rest of us just fell asleep to the wonderful music of the Beatles.)
And I know it sounds silly or boring or whatever, but I couldn't help thinking how sweet that moment was. After all, I already have three kids who would never even want to watch TV with us, let alone plunk down on the bed and cuddle. I miss cuddling them, the older ones, the troubled ones, the ones who have grown beyond my arms but never out of my heart.
Why does it go so quickly? I remember being a kid myself and watching "Yellow Submarine." I remember movie nights at the drive in and being little and caring so much about what my parents thought. Childhood goes by in an instant, they say, and we all know it's true. But what they don't say is that your children's childhood goes even quicker.
That's not to say I don't find it long at times. After all, my oldest is 24 and my youngest is 6. I've been doing this a lot longer - and will continue doing the room mom stuff, the recitals and Halloween parades and even the dreaded homework hour - much longer than most people. Often I feel tired and worn out, but I know that when it's over (if I last!), I will miss it so much.
I miss my babies. But I am trying to stay focused on the now, because these moments too are treasures, and I want to hold on to them for as long as I can.
